There we many times I've stumbled across notes, no BOOKS, written to my father about what ever the problem was at that time. Now, I understand writing your feelings down. But leaving it around it hopes that the intended precipitant would get it? FAIL
I say this to say, don't go looking for things if you don't truly want the answer. If you have a gut feeling, like it wakes you up and keeps you from sleep...LISTEN to that shit.
Let's say you do snoop...and you find everything you needed to find. Then what? I bet all that shit you talked about doing goes right out the window and you're left with nothing but the hurt of the truth. What are you gonna do then? Maybe...just may be...stop to think "what did I do that caused this to happen?"
EGASP!!! Is Kee saying that sometimes the other person can be a cause or attribute to what went wrong? You're damn skippy.
{insert evil cackle}
*Muhahahahahahahahahaaaa